Posts Tagged ‘blogging’

Fare thee well, blog of sunshine

I now declare this blog to be Officially Closed.

All comments are closed.

This. Is. The. Last. Post.

From now on, I’ll be blogging over at coffeeslut.net which will eventually be home to all the posts I’ve written here. I’m having a few technical difficulties exporting them but exported they will be, even if I tear all my hair out in the process.

Thank you, bring me sunshine, you’ve been lovely.

Byeeeeeeee x

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Pack your bags!

Well, I’ve done it.

I have my own website.

I’m still playing with design ideas but I shall shortly (I hope!!) be blogging at coffeeslut.net, which is hosted by the truly wonderful Fee.

I’ll keep you posted – oh, and if you notice any design flaws or problems, especially if you use the dread internet explorer, please say so!

I’d forgotten how much I love css and php – well, apart from the realisation that I’ve forgotten most of what I knew. Yipes!

Too much brain strain

As you know, I’ve been mulling over the idea of getting my own domain name and moving my blog to the self-hosted version of WordPress for at least a year.

Well, I’m going to do it.

I have decided.

It’s just that, well, I’m having a few problems picking a domain name.

All variations of bringmesunshine are, sadly, taken so I need something new.

Thus far, my ideas have ranged from mediocre to terrible – and my friends have been less than helpful 😆

One contender that I think was meant to be a piss take but I rather like is “shortarsedchocoholic”…

Has anyone got any better ideas?!

The private vs the public

It’s the early hours of the morning and after two nights of sleep, my insomnia is back. I would take the dogs for a walk in the snow but I’m now in a built up area, rather than the rural peace and tranquillity of Somerset, so staying in doors seems like the wisest course of action.

And so, some bad TV and the internet.

And over the past hour or so, re-reading the lovely comments some of you have left regarding my last post, not to mention the texts and Facebook messages, I have found myself wondering why I felt the need to blog about the anti-depressants.

And after dismissing several theories, I have decided that my motivation is actually quite simple.

As a child and a teenager, I wanted to keep a diary or a journal, but was never able to keep up the habit. I eventually stopped trying and never really thought about it again until I discovered blogging in my mid-twenties. Here, suddenly, was a medium that appealed to me, and as the days and months passed, I found that I was able to write for other people in a way that I couldn’t write for myself. Even in my early days of blogging, back in the mid-noughties, when days would go by with only a handful of hits, I kept writing. Politics, humour, memes self-analysis, personal anecdotes… it was all there. And I found it a release. Expressing myself became easy, even though I stuck to general issues, rarely posted anything too personal.

That blog has long since died a death. The only record now exists in some back up files on my old laptop, which I can’t get to work.

This blog, by contrast, has been a lot more personal, largely because of the security that comes from its anonymity. Ok, so it’s not completely anonymous, but my real name doesn’t feature!

And what I’m doing is a lot more personal as well, even if everything is up in the air. Growing your own veg, producing your own eggs and pork necessarily forces you to be more in touch with who you are. When you kill a chicken, pluck it, draw out its guts and then cook it and eat it, you get to know who you are.

But writing about it?

I know it’s not everyone’s cup of tea, but it’s something that I’m drawn to. I view my blog as a journal, a record of my life, and to skirt around or ignore the issues and events that most affect me, whether it’s the birth of a new litter of piglets or facing up to the need to take anti-depressants, would cause problems for me. To not be able to blog about certain subjects would render the blog useless as I simply wouldn’t write it at all. (It occurs to me that this explains my absence for most of November and December…)

Now is a time when I need to write, to express myself, to gather my thoughts and put them in some sort of order. And a lifetime of trying demonstrates that I need to do it for other people, whether they read it or not. I don’t know what that says about me, but at this point in time, I really don’t care.

What I don’t know is how open I will be about the specifics. Some of the bloggers whose writings I follow are extremely open about their lives, the good, the bad and the tragic.

I don’t know if I would ever feel comfortable being that open, so bear with me if you don’t understand what I’m talking about, if I refer to things without ever explaining them. I’ve got a bumpy road ahead but in the spirit of keeping faith with those who tell me that I can do this, I am currently determined to weather all storms, to stand firm in the face of adversity … and so on and so forth, til I run out of metaphors and readers!

Remind me, will you? Remind me that optimism and hope, even in the darkest hours of the darkest night, can cast the strongest light into the shadows, that the world is filled with wonder and delight. Remind me what it’s like to hug a friend, to feel the love radiating from my dogs, what it’s like to stand in the snow, to see the sunrise, to sit outside on a hot summer’s day, to sit indoors on a cold winter’s night in front of an open fire, to … well, you get the picture 🙂

Updating the blogroll

Well, it’s taken me long enough but I have finally got round to amending the blogroll. I’ve ditched the old categories: too many of the blogs I read seem to spill over into every category so one long list will just have to do. You never know, maybe one day, wordpress.com will come up with a more interesting way of letting its users list their links…

The new additions are…

Enjoy!

New theme: Connections

I changed my mind about the last theme change and have opted for the Connections theme instead. I like it but have rejected it in the past … wish I could remember why!

Ah well, what’s the point of having access to lots of themes if you don’t get to fiddle about every once in a while….?!

Still no progress on getting my own URL and web space. It’s been put on the back burner for now … but one day…!

New theme: P2

I’m trying out a new theme, though I’m not entirely convinced by it at the moment, for reasons such as the inability to post from the blog itself due to some technical thing I don’t understand, possibly due to sleep deprivation… ho hum, I shall give it a bit (ie longer than ten minutes) before deciding.

On the plus side, I love the fact that the comments are displayed as part of the post itself on the front page, without having to click through to the individual post…